Dick Clark

 

I can't remember ever celebrating the start a new year without Dick Clark.  Even when I struggled to stay awake on New Year's Eve as a kid, his voice would be the lullaby that eased me out of one year and into the next.  I have gotten so used to sharing my New Year with Dick that I find myself practically afraid of the day when an attempt to fill his shoes is made.  My fear, I presume, is based in the unknown.  It's not that I would rather have Dick host New Year's Rockin' Eve forever.  Rather, I enjoy the status quo so much that it would be very difficult to deviate from the norm that Dick Clark has become not knowing who will take his place.

In some ways, my life has been a lot like New Year's Rockin' Eve (well, with a little less confetti and a lot more warmth).  My "Dick Clark" has been my routine of school.  Sure, college threw a curve ball into the mix, but school is still school.  My whole life thus far has been spent preparing for some sort of "grown up" world.  Especially since I started college, I have grown to love this routine.  Now, with exactly four months and twelve days until I graduate, I am absolutely terrified of the inevitable: a major deviation from the norm.  

Even so, here is what I've come to realize.  In describing time and time again that my feelings toward my impending graduation and departure from college are bittersweet, I have discovered why the bitterness seems to outweigh the sweetness.  It's not that I don't think that it is time for me to move on with my life.  Rather, I enjoy the status quo so much that it would be very difficult to deviate from the norm that my life at Temple University has become not knowing what will take its place.

It is with this in mind that I have decided to create this blog.  No matter what happens in the year 2011, it is going to be a monumental year in my life.  My life will take a new direction, and although I do not know what that direction will be, I do know that somehow I am going to get somewhere, and hopefully learn some things in the process.  I hope that looking back on this blog will help me to recognize where I have been, where I am now, and where I would like to be in the future.  So, here's to 2011 being a year of change.  Who knows? Maybe a nice "Ryan Seacrest" is heading my way.  Only time will tell.